The day we heard

Well, today, October 22, 2008, we received news that Nathan's mother, Charlotte most likely has lymphoma. That word just sends total shock waves through my system because I know someone who has died from lymphoma. She was my age and I saw her only hours before she died. I remember reading her carepages website and crying every time I saw it. My friend was a girl from high school whom I really hadn't kept up with over the years other than occasional updates from other friends. I remember being just devastated when I found out that I was the last one in our class to see her alive. Anyway, Charlotte has a 4.5 inch mass in her stomach and is attached to her liver. Nathan wants to know why. What do I tell him? It sounds so placative to say God knows, God will take care of things. She's a Christian, she'll be going to a better place if this is God's timing for her. But I want to know why too. Why does she have to deal with this only 2 weeks after retiring? She should be retiring to enjoy her hard work all her life. It just doesn't seem fair at all. I know that God's sense of fairness and mine are literally worlds apart. That doesn't make it any easier to know that there is something in my MIL that is attacking her system. Nathan and I looked up lots of things on Lymphoma tonight - it doesn't look good. But, we have lots of people to pray for her, so maybe the Lord will heal her and we'll enjoy lots of time together. As it is, if this goes quickly, there will be four grandchildren that won't remember Oma and 2 that will never know her at all. At least until they meet her in heaven. That is a comforting thought.